Dang...i never write in this. i look at lacey's and get so jealous that she remembers to update it. i really need to get with the program. I also added some pictures to the side that are recent so look at them! I thought it was a good time to update though...some super duper exciting news...so after about a year of dating, rob and i are engaged! yay!!! we are getting married August 6th in the Salt Lake Temple. Thuper excited. Ya we have had our rough patches but at the end of the day, i just cant live without him. We broke up in the middle of march because something felt off in the relationship. We decided to date other people for a while and it was weird...it wasnt as hard as i had always imagined. I had always thought i would just be completely devistated if we were to break up, but i wasnt. It was hard,but i really just cant explain it. It was good to realize though that i could be happy without him, because i think that its important to know that if you were to lose that person, you could still go on living. Not too long after we broke up, robbie decided that he knew i was the one he wanted to marry. He had gone on dates with other girls but when he was with them i guess he just couldnt stop thinking about how they just werent "me". I was really hesitant of getting back together with him, and after a lot of thinking i had decided to give him another chance because he really is just an amazing person...and im really glad i did :) after a couple weeks of dating again, i realized that he was the one for me and i never wanted to part with him EVER again. It was kinda crazy...i was so hesitant and unsure, and then one day i just woke up and knew i wanted to be with him for eternity. And now we are getting married :) I am just on cloud nine let me tell you...
So planning a wedding is alot harder than you think of when youre a little girl. Dont get me wrong, i am having a blast doing it, but it is VERY stressful and i find myself on the verge of tears almost all the time lol. It is a lot of work. And i have been crying alot. but im kinda just being a wuss i think. I am trying not to take this time for granted because its so short and i will never get to do this again. Im trying really hard to soak in the good fun things like picking out the flowers and doing my hair, rather than freaking out about how our insurance is going to change and we will have crazy taxes. On one day in particular, i tried on 9 hours worth of the wedding dresses. Yah...you can imagine that would be torture, but i really did enjoy it. I knew it was something i would never get to do again.
I really just cant wait until August 6th....i love him so much! He is amazing. He works harder than anybody i know, and he doesnt complain about it one bit. He is sweet and generous to me and i have so much fun with him. Our lives will be wonderful together and i iknow for sure that our kids will be really really cute. haha. dont judge. They will be.
We put a deposit down on our first apartment in layton. It is a gorgeous apartment. Its in a brand new complex and it is just great. We got a pretty good deal on it too.
Other than wedding stuff...life has just been normal. I still raid the 5 dollar movie bin at wal mart at least once a week, have been eating lots of cereal like usual and spend entirely way too much time on facebook. Its great to be so incredibly happy. I realized that when you first wake up in the morning, or at any time for that matter, that the first few seconds where you are just realizing where you are, who you are, and what youre doing, are not necessarily happy. It takes a few seconds to put together the pieces of your life to realize where youre at. But the other day i woke up to a kiss from robbie (sleeping beauty style) and that moment didnt even occur. I was just overflowing with happiness the second i woke up. That might not make sense to whoever is reading this, but hopefully somebody can relate. Basically, it was just the best feeling in the world.
Anyways, ill keep you updated hopefully better. mmmmmmmkay bye.
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