february 8-16, 2008

so im kinda like super excited i can have a journal again. i hate writing my hand cramps. and so i like typing way better because im fast at it no big deal. even tho it is kinda a big deal. anyways. sooooooooooooooooo updateeeeeeeeee ( oh and btw im not going to use grammar...so shove it.)


my two best friends in the world and i took an AMAZING trip to rexburg idaho for the temple dedication and to just get out of casper. casper is full of crackhead meth addicts, drama, and uhmm....whores? yeah...whores. GAY. so anyways we were totally planning this for about 5 or 6 weeks in advance and it was kinda a big deal for lacey to get work off because shes a big hot shot tax return person and has to work like a slave. so she finally gets the time off and its the only weekend she can get off for freakin ever and then we find out the night before we go that the roads were closed. GAY. so we threw a temper tantrum and decided we would see how things went in the morning. Lacey really wanted to see her boyfriend jeff...and jess and i...well we just wanted to meet some boys...haha. i was pretty stoked on that idea since ive gone through all the boys i want in casper...and there are no good ones left. casper is dumb. and i hadnt liked a boy in so long it seemed like. so i was pretty excited to go on some dates and makeout with people. haha.

the next morning we checked the road reports and decided we were going to go even if the pass was closed. so yeah...the pass was closed. the roads were horrible and we ended up getting snowed in in jackson. not to mention my knuckles were sore because i kept hitting them on the ceiling in the car while lace and i rocked out to disney music singing and dancing. oh man....getting stuck in jackson was the best night ever. we stayed at this nasty-A hotel that was only 45 dollars a night...it was seriously like a little cubby hole. a cubby hole with two beds. and a little weirdo bathroom that had hair in the sink. so we got dressed up and wanted to go out somewhere nice for dinner...drove around, got lost.....then all the restaraunts closed so we ended up going to village inn. ahahhaha yay! i am pretty sure it was a rule that you had to be mexican to work there. our waiters name was ignacias. but i asked him if it was ok to call him nacho and he said yes. I then proceeded to ask him if they had milkshakes and he said they didnt have any ice cream. jessica being the gullible gilly that she is was like.... really? NO. jess. hes lying. i said...nacho youre lying. he said yes. im lying. what a prankster that ignacias was. He was a slave to us. he said he liked pretty girls so we took full advantage of that. he was so silly. a nice mexi man tho. thats for sure. then all the sudden we looked up and the ceiling was gone. what? yeah...the ceiling was gone.. all there was was a little wire holding up a chandilier thingy and it seriously looked liek it was going to fall on my face. i said..hey nacho...does this look safe to you? and he said....dont worry we have insurance....and iw as like.....ummmmmmmm my FACE doesnt have insurance nacho.....so can i have some water? he brought out the water and said hey you guys you should talk to your water because its funny....i saw it on tv and you act like youre mad at your water and then you drink it....uhhhhh what? nacho youre crazy. so long story...not short....that was the best night ever. We got our picture taken with him and everything. after village inn...we headed back to our hotel room.... i wont even BEGIN to tell you what went on there that night.......it was total chaos....literally...like you cant even begin to imagine what went on. finally we all settled down and i (with the total insomniac that i am)watched like 5 hours on the spanish channel some soap opera and this other show that was about the equivilent to a jerry springer for mexis.

next day we woke up refreshed and ready to roll but the roads were still closed. GAY. so we had to backtrack all the way to aften and go up through idaho falls to get to rexburg..what was supposed to be an hour from jackson to rexburg suddenly turned into an extra three and a half hours of gayness.

finally we get to rexburg and we meet up with my good buddy will winn and visit with him for a while, meet jeff (laceys bf), and some other people. they were all cool and then i was like hey guys i want to meet a boy so jess called up darrin and he had set me up with his hottest roomate. so i was pretty stoked on that. we meet over at darrins...and i was kinda worried that he was going to hook me up with a weirdo ugly guy....but then here came this gorgeous guy and he was just my type. seriously. i got all shy around him and i am never shy around boys. so on our way to wherever we were going i kinda started to strike up a conversation with him...his name is derek btw...haha....and it started out as a usual awkward conversation...the kind you get when you are first meeting someone. throughout the night he and i became more aquainted with one another and before you knew it we were laughing and joking. then he asked me when the last time i farted was. it was amazing. what?!?! ive never had a guy ask me that before and that was so cool. this kid was just like me! the 4 hours we spent together had felt like i had known him for years. it was so weird i cant even explain to you how it was. i had never had that happen before. he was so forward about everything and that was awesome. by the end of the night we were kissing and cuddling and i never kiss random boys...ever. he said he wanted to see me the next day so i was excited about that. that night i had another date planned in advance so i went to that one. dan and mike were so funny and a hoot to hang out with. if i lived in rexburg i could totally see myself hanging out with them like all the time. they were two way awesome guys. but the whole time i was over at their apartment i couldnt stop thinking about derek. it was weird. and all that night. the next day he and i got together and it was incredible i cant even tell you how much he and i connected. ive never had this happen to me before in my life. its completely irrational and in no way makes sense whatsoever...but it just feels right...and im going to go off of that instinct. i had a breakdown that night....lace and jess could probably tell you all about that....but ill just make it short and tell you that i was feeling things i had never felt before. i thought i was in love once...in fact i was positive...but after that night it was as if everything i was feeling was contridicting everything i had ever felt in my past for jordan. im not saying im in love with derek...yet...but it was just kind of an answer to my prayer...one i had been praying on for a long time. to finally let go of my past and to meet someone better.now he and i talk on the phone all the time and are constantly texting. its great. i honestly cant remember a time ive been happier. weird how when everything in your life seems to be falling apart....it all magically pulls itself back together with different people and different blessings.