Time to start using birth control! weird...

so our air conditioning broke today and it was 100 degrees. ick. so the wedding is in little over a month and its so crazy! i am so excited. planning is going well and invitations should be going out in the mail in the next couple weeks. I had a long and overdue phone conversation with my best friend lacey tonight. it felt so good to just talk to her. We talk over the internet quite a bit but its nice just to talk to her personally...well over the phone anyway. It always reminds me of how much i do miss her and need her in my life. If i had to pick one friend to keep for the rest of my life it would definitely be her. I think that as we get older and get married we forget about the friends around us and that is pretty much inevitable i believe, but there are always a few people that you just cant ever let go of, and she is one of those people. I want to keep her in my life forever :) If it was possible, i would want to be sealed to her haha. But enough said, I love her and im so excited to see her soon.

Robbie and i went wakeboarding the other day for the first time this summer and it was so much fun! He is such a good wakeboarder i was impressed. He fell one time but not way hard or anything, but it sure did a lot of damage. We were both sore, but thats normal for after youre done on the lake. We didnt think anything of it so the next day he had his soccer game. After the game his sore back got worse so we went into my hot tub. BAD IDEA. HE really had hurt his lower back and when we got into that heat, it made the muscles in his back expand and created this huge knot in his back. It literally looked like there was a softball underneath his skin. I have never seen someone in that much pain personally. That night he woke me up at 330 because he needed to go to the ER. So his dad and i took him to the hospital and they said he tore some muscles in his back, (a lumbar strain or something liek that) and now it was bleeding inside and the muscle had started to spasm. I figured it would last just a little while, but it lasted almost three whole days! Poor rob was in so much pain and originally the doctor at the ER perscribed him some loritab and a muscle relaxant to help the pain, but those medicines didnt seem to even phase the problem. So on monday night he went to another doctor and he prescribed him some stronger narcotics and a different muscle relaxer. It seemed that rob couldnt get one second of relief. It hurt when he laid on his back. It hurt when he laid on his stomach, when he sat, when he knelt, when he stood. It was horrible. I hated watching him in so much pain. Finally, after the doctor gave him some stronger stuff, he started to get some relief. He could finally fall asleep for the first time in a few days and i just would sit on the couch for hours at a time and just let robbie lay his head in my lap in sleep all day. The only bad part about the stronger pain pills was that they would make him sick and he threw up a couple of times. But today he was able to go back to work and it seems like its getting better. He is still sore but hes doing a lot better which i am very thankful for.

As for me, I am getting ready to move out of my apartment and into the new one rob and i signed for for when we get married. I am going to live in it all of july until august when we get married and he can move in with me :) I am pretty excited. It is a very very nice apartment complex and is brand new. I am trying really hard to watch what i eat, pray more and read my scriptures everyday. I havent been doing my best at that lately but im really trying hard to do better than i have been. Other than that im still looking for a job in the layton/ogden area and its been really hard. I cant seemt to find anything. Tomorrow i am going to go to my last resort option and apply at restaurants. Aghhhh i hate working at restaurants. Well its ok i guess i am a good waitress and its great money, its jujst that the hours suck really bad at restaurants. Nobody makes money during the day, and if you work an evening shift youre usually there until midnight. But im sure ill figure it all out.

I am so excited to see lacey and ally soon. i cant wait! Welp i had better go to bed now. ta ta.

Mawwwaige is what bwings us togedda today...

Dang...i never write in this. i look at lacey's and get so jealous that she remembers to update it. i really need to get with the program. I also added some pictures to the side that are recent so look at them! I thought it was a good time to update though...some super duper exciting news...so after about a year of dating, rob and i are engaged! yay!!! we are getting married August 6th in the Salt Lake Temple. Thuper excited. Ya we have had our rough patches but at the end of the day, i just cant live without him. We broke up in the middle of march because something felt off in the relationship. We decided to date other people for a while and it was weird...it wasnt as hard as i had always imagined. I had always thought i would just be completely devistated if we were to break up, but i wasnt. It was hard,but i really just cant explain it. It was good to realize though that i could be happy without him, because i think that its important to know that if you were to lose that person, you could still go on living. Not too long after we broke up, robbie decided that he knew i was the one he wanted to marry. He had gone on dates with other girls but when he was with them i guess he just couldnt stop thinking about how they just werent "me". I was really hesitant of getting back together with him, and after a lot of thinking i had decided to give him another chance because he really is just an amazing person...and im really glad i did :) after a couple weeks of dating again, i realized that he was the one for me and i never wanted to part with him EVER again. It was kinda crazy...i was so hesitant and unsure, and then one day i just woke up and knew i wanted to be with him for eternity. And now we are getting married :) I am just on cloud nine let me tell you...

So planning a wedding is alot harder than you think of when youre a little girl. Dont get me wrong, i am having a blast doing it, but it is VERY stressful and i find myself on the verge of tears almost all the time lol. It is a lot of work. And i have been crying alot. but im kinda just being a wuss i think. I am trying not to take this time for granted because its so short and i will never get to do this again. Im trying really hard to soak in the good fun things like picking out the flowers and doing my hair, rather than freaking out about how our insurance is going to change and we will have crazy taxes. On one day in particular, i tried on 9 hours worth of the wedding dresses. Yah...you can imagine that would be torture, but i really did enjoy it. I knew it was something i would never get to do again.

I really just cant wait until August 6th....i love him so much! He is amazing. He works harder than anybody i know, and he doesnt complain about it one bit. He is sweet and generous to me and i have so much fun with him. Our lives will be wonderful together and i iknow for sure that our kids will be really really cute. haha. dont judge. They will be.

We put a deposit down on our first apartment in layton. It is a gorgeous apartment. Its in a brand new complex and it is just great. We got a pretty good deal on it too.

Other than wedding stuff...life has just been normal. I still raid the 5 dollar movie bin at wal mart at least once a week, have been eating lots of cereal like usual and spend entirely way too much time on facebook. Its great to be so incredibly happy. I realized that when you first wake up in the morning, or at any time for that matter, that the first few seconds where you are just realizing where you are, who you are, and what youre doing, are not necessarily happy. It takes a few seconds to put together the pieces of your life to realize where youre at. But the other day i woke up to a kiss from robbie (sleeping beauty style) and that moment didnt even occur. I was just overflowing with happiness the second i woke up. That might not make sense to whoever is reading this, but hopefully somebody can relate. Basically, it was just the best feeling in the world.

Anyways, ill keep you updated hopefully better. mmmmmmmkay bye.