updateness.

so its been like a couple months since i updated this. i need to do that more often considering this is like my journal. hmm....so a few months ago i was really down. like reallllly down. my best friend was at school....someone i spend 90% of my time with when home...i had just been cheated on, and i was feeling more depressed than i had in years. I was working as a waitress at Old Chicago and it was ok at the start...i mean, i was making alot of money. It just gets really old serving gluttons their food and being treated like a slave everyday. not to mention the hours were horrible. late nights are no bueno. The atmosphere there was just wasnt what i was looking for. especially when all your co-workers love to curse and talk nasty....words start popping out of your mouth that you never even thought about saying before. So i quit. I applied for a position at the boys and girls club here in casper. The hiring process was sooooo long and crazy. Drug tests, background checks, interviews, etc. But i finally got the job! I have been working there since May and it is an awesome job. Yes, some of the kids make me want to pull my hair out and scream, and yes, the pay is horrible...but its something i know thats worth my time. Its just for the summer anyway right? Its really cool being a part of something bigger than just getting money to pay the bills. Im getting to play with kids...help them...and get paid for it!

Aside from that, this summer has been so fun! My prayers were really answered! i have been hanging out with the best group of friends this summer. I couldnt ask for more. I have become really close with some people i never really thought i would. Its the end of july now, and i leave for school soon. Im so excited! i cant wait to go to salt lake. Im working on a housing situation to live in an apartment with sarah smith and a couple other girls...yay! I am off medication and basically happier than i have been in years! Living rocks! plus lacey gets home this weekend and i cant wait to reunite with my bestie! yay!

So this is the part of the blog where i update on my dating life haha.......oh jeez. So dating has been crazy for me the past year....i havent really found any guys i want to have a relationship with...well...one...but he decided to be a manwhore so that didnt work out. I have dated around a lil bit this summer and its been alot of fun. Nobody i feel completely gaga over though. Until like a couple weeks ago. but we'll see how that works out :-) Well...i wont tell you his name...but i met him..he lives in utah. He is super cute and genuine. I love talking to him more than anyone else. We talk every night for hours...and we never run out of things to say. ever. He makes me laugh so much...and his voice is really hott. (the voice thing was kinda an inside joke) Its the first guy ive really clicked with in a long time. Our personalities just really mesh. its freakin sweet. Plus, he is my type. I have trouble finding my type haha. The way he talks, the activities he likes to do, the way he dresses..its just me :-) Just one more reason to be super stoked to move to utah! i can hang out with him all the time!

So.... life is good. i cant complain. Yeah, ill really miss living with lacey this fall...but who knows. Maybe ill get to room with her later down the college line. i really miss her...and even though she is far away, she'll always be my best friend. I love her soooo much! wow....i made that sound like we are dating. awkward. anyways. haha. bye.